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It was just an idea I had. I wasn't sure if it was correct, but it was worth exploring. The rent was due and i didn't know how I would pay it. There was a fund for these kind of expenditures. He wasn't saying what was on his mind, or was minding what he was saying. I regretted it immediately. He was a big fan of mine from back in the days when the leather-gang was still young. We went out on the town, but the town bit back and we surrendered our arms to the man at the gate. We don't want no trouble here he said. Good well, that's good for you I guess, me, I'd take a little trouble here and there. It's good for the heart. Life isn't meant to just pass by. Life is meant to be struggled with and I love it here, wherever it is that I am. I don't know about the coordinates that we are at. Where are we? I stepped through a portal and was transported here. It was an unusual thing, I don't normally do it, but it works sometimes when you need to make a fast getaway. What are you boys running from? he asked. Ourselves, our mothers, our fathers, our fears, our feelings, our fraternity, our flatulence, our flames, our flowers, our flies, all kinds of things to be avoided if you know where to look. I looked up and down at him and knew he was a roughneck. I grabbed him by the neck and said you're coming with us. We are going to do an unspeakable violence to your body and soul. You are going to wish that you were somewhere else or that you were never been born or were born to a different mother or in a different place when we found you, but we would have always found you, it's written in the blood of fate and she never fails to deliver me the means to get my nuts busting like firecrackers of the Fourth of July. I been around a lot of people like you but I never understood why you just stand there. Is there something you are looking for that you don't know where to find? Do you know what you're looking for? I'm on a quest to find a particular little object and you're going to lead us straight to it. I been around the block a few times and its always the same with varmints like you. You stand up for just causes and you back down when some fun could be had. Now you listen here, I'm a quiet man but that doesn't mean a piece of me is missing. I can talk alright but I never see the point. What good is fun to someone as destitute as me? I been a long lost survivor to the throne of the king and he wants me to stay put, in case something should happen, but I'm not listening to him, I'm listening to me. I want to stay put in case there is a fire and I'm needed to extinguish said flames. There are a lot of reasons for my inactivity. I am an itchy soul and I want a lot of things for my children. My children are the world to me and I couldn't help not standing here and doing something about it to protect their health. They are good little children with teeth and gold stars. We wanted the best for both of them. We wanted the best from ourselves. Now you're telling me its too late to dig the plots for my grandparents to be buried? I want water and I want relief. I been stuck here too long counting the sheep as they graze different pastures, different from the ones I am used to. You think you're a big man but I think you're a small man. Just wait til you see me grow. And he grew to an enormous size. I mean, he got really big. He took the Ferris wheel in his hand and spun it over his head like a centrifuge. I think some people escaped in time. We had had enough of this. We were just messing with the hick. He got uncomfortable to be around. We would have to practice our violence in some other location. It would be easy to find more victims. There's a new victim born every hour. It is hard bearing responsibility for the evil in this world, but if I don't do it, I would feel bad about myself. I am after all the spawn of hell and it's up to me to make things hot for people. I am an engine that keeps the world moving. They're counting on me to do it and I must. I must continue on my path of bitter destruction and torrential rain. It is the only thing I know and I know I can do it efficiently if only I put my head down and work. There is something about the Midwest in the winter that makes me sleepy and comforted. I think it's from being so far from the ocean, the taunting, roiling, ocean. I couldn't be anything, I can only be who I am. And I'm happy with that. That sounds okay to me. It couldn't really be any other way. There was nothing else to do now but go to the store and buy supplies for lunch. I was hungry and needed food, for sustenance.