drunk again

Well i'm writing a blog post, saturday, do you feel the energy? Is the energy with you. We are blogging, blogging on blogger and you are reader, reading my considered opinion and drawing your own conclusions. We forgot about the dignitary, left him at the hotel, but their was the most amazing piano player there, he played like we had never heard before, a completely original style, and it seemed to meander as if it were improvised, but improvised to a system or a set of systems, and I'll let you in on the secret, I was the piano player, and yes it is true, cat can't stay awake anywhere in my vicinity. So sal, let's go to vegas, see if any one needs to get murdered, and we'll do lot's of blow, and then we die from a flesh eating bacteria source from a hooker corpse. I don't know, guys like that, you gotta hope they get what comes to them. My friend jesus christo says that all men are good and i believe it. I'm not going to act like cormac mccarthy is realistic, is horror genre.

Mister Rosellini Valiente Mirosa Vaughn Davis

C: Okay Darlings star time it is. We would like to welcome on stage Mister Rosellini Valiente Mirosa Vaughn Davis. (applause) Hello Mister Davis.

D: Hello Doctor Chocolate. It is good to be here.

C: Yes here is a good place to be.

D: Indeed I agree, of all the places to be, here is certainly a good one.

C: Well then, I guess that leads to my first question, what's you're favorite part about being here?

D: Well I'd have to say it is the smile I see on your face.

C: Ladies and gentlemen, do you hear this man? The smile on my face. What kind of citizen are you?

D: I'm the type of citizen who is synthesizing a great deal of information, in different quantities. There is a tremendous amount of math to do in everyday existence.

C: We didn't come here to talk about math. Do you mind if I talk about something else?

D: Well you can talk about something else but I'll probably still be talking about math.

C: Perfect! I heard something about your mother. Is she living with you?

D: No, we found her a cottage. She was living with me, it was very good for our health, I mean there is something between us, a good sync. I mean we know each other well. We are well accustomed to one another. A lot of information I process has to do with her. She is this classification of figures. She is a data set. It rests at the foundation of my basic processes.

C: And well I heard that you did something special for her birthday.

D: That is incorrect, we did not celebrate her birthday.

C: Well I heard, you went to that restaurant.

D: Oh yes, We went to a strange restaurant and ate strange foods, bland in a way, not transporting, I just you, know, sometimes see the lights in a different way. There is a way out of here into the stage above. I feel like I am figuring it out.

C: Oh is that so?

D: Yes, I am conducting very important research on transcendence. Can you deal with the fact of computers? That something like this will be here forever. That there is a new type of work that everyone can do. I think I see a way to transform this world. I am working on it.

C: Is it something you can hold?

D: I am working deep in the source code and looking at information in different ways. I am struggling to change the story. I guess I am starting with the end, but then I always work on the beginning and the middle, the middle seems to go on forever. I can write the middle all day. In fact most of it is the middle. That's the heart. You can't trust beginnings or endings. I would like a few different beginnings converging on the same middle. You understand I have to say these things as they come to me. I have forgotten nearly everything.

C: What did you forget?

D: I didn't forget, I am just too busy to remember. It is good to forget to remember. There are some times I would like to have go longer. I would like to adjust my heart rate. I would like to be able to think more quickly. I guess I am lucky that I basically think as fast as I talk except I never have to pause for breaths. And that is the thing I want to stress. It is okay to talk slowly and it is okay to repeat yourself.

C: Okay, I'll take your advice. What do I say?

D: I assumed that you were going to repeat yourself, but I guess it is okay to move on to. I feel alright about the passing of time. What I find in my travels is that the world grows more wonderous with age. How many lifetimes have I already lived? I move quickly it is true. I wonder how old I am. I have had many estimates. I mean, the number is always growing so it is meaningless. I suppose the answer could be given as a range of numbers that would be valid ages for a certain period of time but lo! That list would be infinite. I suppose I can imagine this list growing, but it is not something I would get a tattoo of.

C: Oh I do love tattoos, do you have any?

D: I do not. It is my hope to be able to shift my shape. I am working on techniques to mask myself completely, take on the appearance of someone else. A tattoo would give away my disguise. It may come to the day where I become someone else permanently. I may be back later, I don't know. This body has treated me well.

C: Very well indeed. I hear you are up for some awards.

D: Yes, I have a lot of dreams that take place at awards shows so I am excited to be there. Something strange might happen.

C: You're always searching for curiosities, aren't you?

D: It is true that I am taking part in a vast index. I am encountering information and undergoing processes. There is a lot to calculate it but I think I could answer everything.

C: Answer everything? Answer this first: Where'd you get those shoes?

D: I appreciate your humor Doctor Chocolate. I don't know how deep of an answer you want. Do you want to know where I learned to appreciate this style. I could spend all day answering this question.

C: Oh well please do, where did you get those shoes?

D: Well for me, I am into materials. I like the things things are made from. I think leather is a wonderful material. I mean it is real thick skin. It comes from an animal. Leather is so great. But right, there are other interesting materials. I mean, I know I want leather involved, but maybe there could be some silk. I mean, silk is another animal product. Animals makes it and it is wonderful. Everything can tell that silk is nice. You bring a silk pillow into a room, even the floor will be like, hey what is that? Put that on me. But the couch will be like, ah, silk, how I want to touch you. I will touch you so gently. Will will observe good times together. Me and you silk. And I'm probably the one who enjoys the silk the most and the room likes it because the room really exists for me and they know it, I mean they are in support of me. They are really so devoted. They will be here for me. I mean, could they do more, yes, but they don't know how. We got to build a computer into the floor, have a smart floor. I wouldn't mind these kinds of additions to my lifestyle. In fact I can't do without them.

C: Oh honey, that was wonderful but you were supposed to talk about the shoes.

D: Look, I'm sorry, but I have a process, it is just how I work. I really don't know how to answer questions at all.

C: It's okay I am a forgiving host.

D: I will try to overlook this.

C: Over look, oh honey, you're tripping.

D: Oh you know I am.

C: Okay honey, I will be more gentle with you.

D: Thank you. I would appreciate that Doctor Chocolate.

C: You know I'm your doctor, I'm going to help you in all kinds of ways. Help you get better.

D: Yes Doctor Chocolate, I am feeling rather ill, everything is melting.

C: That can be a normal experience. I don't think it puts you in any kind of danger. But you do know what it means right?

D: I have a secret.

C: And you should cherish this secret.

D: It is my secret and I should guard it.

C: You don't have to guard your secret too tightly. It is a surprising secret. Most people wouldn't believe if you told them.

D: That is a good way of putting it Doctor Chocolate. Have you observed the recent transit of Mercury?

C: The stars are pulling you in different directions. I think you have to let it out.

D: Yes Doctor Chocolate, I have been repressing a lot of things recently.

C: That is surprising to hear.

D: There is just too much to say Doctor Chocolate.

C: You can tell me anything you like.

D: Are you sure?

C: I mean, this is my show, I run it, but I only have it so that you can be on it.

D: So I want to see what I have to say?

C: Yes, you may say whatever you like.

D: Are you just know deciding this because it seemed like earlier you were trying to make me talk about certain things.

C: I am sorry Mister Rosellini Valiente Mirosa Vaughn Davis. This is not my show. This is your show.

D: Do you mean it?

C: I'm not sure, I might not. I want to help you feel comfortable but there are certain ways I want myself to feel. I feel like I have to hold on to something. I am holding onto my ego. I need to validate myself. I need to hold on to myself. This is my show and this is the source of my power. I am not just a body who can survive on his own. I need structures to maintain myself living on. Do you understand me Mister Rosellini Valiente Mirosa Vaughn Davis?

D: Yes Doctor Chocolate. I can see a way where I could be comfortable on your show while honoring your role as host.

C: Well isn't that great? That is what I was hoping for. Well actually I didn't foresee a single thing about this conversation. Like most things I thought it would work out fine. I can't seem to do anything in advance. It gives me a lot of dead-time. I really need to find a better way to live my life. I know I am a doctor. But I suppose I could use some help from you Mister Rosellini Valiente Mirosa Vaughn Davis.

D: Yes, we could help each other.

C: Well what do you suggest?

D: I suggest using a computer. They are amazing inventions. I use them for all sorts of things, but mostly reading and writing. People are a great source of literature.

C: Thank you Mister Rosellini Valiente Mirosa Vaughn Davis. That was good advice. So specific.

D: Yes specificity is my specialty.

C: Well thank you. Is there anything I could help you with? You maybe had something on your mind you wanted to share.

D: There was just this time when I was still a child. I mean I saw the world differently. I mean, I remember how everything looked. I was seeing through this fog. I was wandering among the trees sensing the moods they were giving us. All the trees seemed to have their own personality. But then I came across one tree that seems to know it all. I looked at its bark and it described a scene. It was an epic battle between forces. It seemed like written on the skin of this true was the scene of a meeting between all of creation, when they first gathered to make of go of life and existence. The tree was thick and fairly short but it covered a wide expanse of area. It was marvelously beautiful. It was well organized. It looked strong, in good proportions. I saw this tree and I felt tired and I laid underneath the tree and immediately was carried off. I was In this other forest, or maybe the same forest and I said where am I? And an old warrior stepped out and said you are where destinies meets. Then the birds flew close to my head and whispered in my ear. They said the frogman was waiting for me. I said what is going on? I was like, what is this, this is amazing. The warrior says, keep asking questions, stay afloat, it is very important that you be here. I started chasing a squirrel and then suddenly I was in a clearing. There were Three suns in the sky and they were swirling around. The clearing was filled with representatives of all the animals and they were all watching the sky. There was something happening up there. It looked like there were three suns and they were fighting. I remember thinking that one of the suns was good. I mean One was Yellow, one was red and one was blue. They would start to melt together and then break off again. The light when we looked around was strange. You couldn't predict who would look yellow, who would look red, who would look blue. We understood that something important was happening. Hours must have passed. I remember thinking that it had changed my soul. I felt like so many things happened to me while I stared directly into the Suns. I had observed everything there was to see. A direct metaphysical phenomenon. It changed everything about me. Near the end, I saw among the animals the tree. The one I feel asleep under. I walked up to the tree and saw myself laying there sleeping. I crawled into my body and I immediately awoke. I gasped and said oh my god. Where was I? I must have been somewhere else. Where did I go? I want to know what you think of my story Doctor Chocolate.

C: That was an amazing story. I think you witnessed something real. I think that really happened and you were there. I think it may have happened in the past far far back in the past, or maybe it hasn't happened yet, or maybe it happened in another dimension. Yes. It was very important that you come here and share your experience.

D: Yes It was a delight being here Doctor Chocolate.

C: Yes, we'll be sure to have you back soon. You've been wonderful Mister Rosellini Valiente Mirosa Vaughn Davis. We'll be back with my guest Liverest Van Thimblestroke. Stay tuned.

An Interview

M: It is very nice to sit with you today.

W: Thank you, it is my pleasure.

M: So I wanted to start by talking about your controversial new single, “Destroy the World” Do you really want to see the world destroyed?

W: Well you have to understand that is just music and I am trying to gain fans and twitter followers. I try to diagnose the zeitgeist and come up with something that will be supported by the people who feel they are voiceless.

M: So you are trying to tap into the market of the disaffected and resolutely negative?

W: When I check the Internet I am struck by how negative people are. There is a lot of arguing and a lot of anger that seems to exist for its own sake. It may be hard to be passionate about something, but people still desire to feel passionate.

M: So you sing about the passion for the destruction of the Earth?

W: Yes precisely. Although this may not be something you truly desire, I would think that it is clearly an image we seek. There is a lot of energy swirling around the idea of an apocalypse, the total destruction of everything we hold dear. We crave this image, although it may not be something we desire to actually transpire, we believe that it would be an interesting thing to dream about. There is a difference between image and reality, now more than ever with the widespread popularity of film, and in a way, it has always been there in the promise of dreams.

M: Have you dreamed of a total apocalypse? Is this something you've seen that you are trying to share?

W: The imagination is a powerful function of the human mind. I believe that we are receding from life and are being swallowed up by the imagination. As an artist, I never really feel present anywhere. If i go see a beautiful vista, in a way, it is wasted on me, because my imagination is always elsewhere. I always see double, that which is in front of me and that which I choose to see. I suppose there are sometimes when me and my imagination are in the same locale, but these moments of ecstasy are rare, though they make life so worthwhile.

M: Is life otherwise not worthwhile to you? I mention this because you sing about the glory that will be had in the end of all times. You seem to present a hopeless point of view, and I am wondering how true it is to your life.

W: There are things I adore about life and other things I could really do without. I am hopelessly bored by eating, but there seem to be no way around this necessity of life. I guess I believe it is easier to be negative and in fact negativity may be more productive than positivity. Negativity is certainly easier. It is easier to condemn something than to posit alternatives and solutions. I think with my song I was just trying to demonstrate that there is a problem. The solution proposed obviously doesn't quite work-- or rather does not work at all, but is a hyperbole to stress the importance of what we have at hand.

M: So are you saying that the problem is political or existential? Is the problem in society or is it a basic feature of life?

W: I wish I could say both. There are those who believe that the paths of history are unavoidable and are determined by the same laws that all existence adheres to. I mean like there are consequences of being a material object. The fact that you cannot disappear at will. This seems obviously true, but I would remind you that in dreams a person can move quite freely without following the rules of matter. Though some dreams are more confining...

M: So do you think the problem is a technical one? Do you believe that new technologies that could let a person teleport could solve the problems you face in this material world?

W: I think so. I could imagine that I would be made happy by some technical solutions to the problem of matter. It seems that the worst thing about the world is the violence. Everyone agrees that this is the worst thing that can happen to you.

M: This is interesting because in your song you present a total violence as the solution to the ills of the world. You propose destroying everything.

W: I feel like this is a solution based in comedy. I hope my song is funny, not in an overt way, but in a devilish, ironic kind of way. In another tact towards answering your questions, I feel like the image of apocalyptic destruction is a way of testing yourself and discovering what is important to you. We like apocalyptic images because through them you can discover who we truly are. When I say who we truly are, I mean the things that necessity drives us to. When we have to make important choices, we can see what we would choose. If the scenario wasn't drawn in full color we might not see our own potential. It can be comforting to think of violent scenarios and see yourself behaving honorably and brave. This image in times of stress could help be the foundation of lesser goods, which in an empty plane, may be all that you get.

M: I don't know what you mean by empty plane, you short of lost me at the end there.

W: I mean that there isn't much to be done in this world. There are a few bodily pleasures, sex and drugs, exercise and repose, but this is not always enough for the mind. You can comfort your body and this will help your mind, but a person needs to think to be happy. There has to be mysteries to solve. I have had the pleasure of changing my mind and thinking in entirely different ways. I guess when I started life, I lived against the image presented to me by television. Television presented what I had to assume was normal human behavior. I really had no other measures. I wanted to live by the same values that I saw. I developed a sense of humor above all things. The comedy lifestyle is quite widespread. Everyone wants to makes light of everything. Is this good or bad, I cannot say. It is interesting being human because our behavior is modified in so many slight ways. All the time we are learning and changing. If you are a person who criticises yourself, you are influencing yourself, but in a way, you are being molded by outside standards. Where did you get the criteria on which you ply your critiques? The world of ideas is quite real. We all share many of the same ideas about how people should behave, and we observe these abstractions in everything we do. As I was saying, some of this is quite naturally developed, flowing from the laws of materials. We are as we are because we are as we are.

M: I'm not sure I follow you. On the one hand you say that we can change and on the other you say we are as we are, which leaves no room to change.

W: Well, I guess I am saying there is a difference between what we are and what we do. I guess there is not really anything that is, but only things that do. It is a basic fact that things maintain their integrity. If something behaves in a particular manner it is likely going to continue to act that way. Now this is true of chemicals, but people do change, though one could say this might be a chemical change. We don't know what a person is made up of. They can contain different nutrients, different chemicals that could lead them to behave in a different manner. It is not the case that the minds has nothing to do with the chemicals that make up a body. Different experiences lead to different chemicals being present in the brain. The brain is the main behavioral organ in the human body. To judge a person by how they behave may limit the ontology of humanity, but in a violent world it is necessary.

M: You seem to be going a long way to rationalize your negative approach. Do you rationalize your insistence on the use of poetry as a lens for the world?

W: Well yes, the arguments on which our whole universe were very broad, but expressed concepts that were limited in space. The first premise on which our civilization was born was “everything is water.” Loaded with this proclamation is the number one. “Everything” is a singular term, but it is a striking concept presented by the multiplicities we know and feel from experience in the world to a single name to refer to it all. It denies the notion of time. Things actually exist one at a time, leading along a path. I privilege the reality of the experience that happens behind the eyes. The objective world certainly exist, but in an outer shell that wraps around the dense nexus of activity that is the human experience. Religion is a dense technology. It was developed using a method similar to science. Religions are rationally constructed. But I'm not rejecting science. It is a better approach, though the method should be turned into itself. The mind would be an excellent machine if harnessed and used for a productive purpose. I am interested in poetics because I have rationalist beliefs in the use of repetition in inducing ecstatic states.

M: Do you really mean ecstatic states? I ask because you have behaved very rationally in this interview. This would lead me to believe you as a moderate.

W: You can't hear what life has to tell you if you are only tuned into the middle frequencies. Or perhaps you can hear just fine-- should sound like a telephone--and the words come across clear. I believe modulating the body through exercise, the mind can tune into different waves of the thought. Everything is unfolding and everyone can see it. Things start making more and more sense. Things that seem to be disparate suddenly connect. You learn to trust yourself and the chaos inside you. There is a knowledge that exists that comes from being born. We know something that can't be expressed in words. It could be that this knowledge is the source of our words. I believe that with words we can alter biological and physical reality. I truly believe that the more you say, within or without, the better you will be. We know what our DNA holds. Our complete being is within every cell in our body. There is not a part of the body that does not know about the whole. I mean “know” in the realest sense. Knowing is embedded as a physical necessity. Everything else is fuel for the fire. A person is a combustion machine. They burn prepared biological agents in order to generate and reinforce concepts. It has been seen that concepts lead the way for reality to follow.

M: This is getting pretty heavy. You seem an urgency to convey the differance between your reality and one you suppose exists. You engage in the world of idea-products, so aren't you getting in the way of people's true knowledge of themselves?

W: Culture is the process that selects what kind of products should be created. I mean particularly, human-products. It is hard to say what someone should do with their life. I believe I live in a way that works for me, given my metabolism and habits of mind. I believe that I can infect others with a piece of my essence through contact, and that my essence will alter their essence, and that my essence is good.

M:I figured you'd be beyond good or evil. Do you claim yourself to be good to counter the feeling I have that you are bad? While your song is conceived with artistry, might it contain a message that has a bad effect on people's essences?

W: Yes I wonder that too. But if my essence can alter others, than of course others can alter me. In a way, recording that song was a way of opening myself up to the world. I am closer now to everything. It is a very positive effect on me. Hopefully we work harmonically and this is good for both me and the limit of everything.

M: So this truly was a crass, negative record as a way to boost yourself?

W: Yes. You must be a person who is envious of others' very clear successes.

M: We don't know how this story ends. It could be that you are weaving your destiny with bad luck.

W: The idea of recording a negative record that reinforces rational boundaries, the separation between the self and the world, seemed to me as a moderate action. I wasn't preaching the joys of having abortions. I do not see this record as a very original idea-product. It is a technical exercise in the crafting of popular rhymes and the setting of music. I do, however, plan to press the boundaries of what can be said in a song and in the type of messages people receive.

M: Do you care to share the direction of this future work?

W: Well I think there should be smaller subjects. I think time frames could be shorter. I guess I have a lot of theoretical work to do. It is difficult to establish the nature of “good,” but this is the goal I am tracing. I am working with mapping the good as an aspect of duration. Good may certainly just be a feeling. I am trying to develop a physics of the consciousness. More and more it seems like I am less a physical presence than an effusion of words. To give priorities to the fountain of language that represents the truth over the experience of flesh which is but a shadow is to make your way through a bushy path.

M: You seem to be very wise. Have you ever considered opening a school?

W: I detect your note of sarcasm, but yes I do consider the experience of teaching. It seems to be a problem with this world that the people with the most innovative ideas don't seem to pass on their knowledge. Maybe they consider it effusisible and inescapable, but I think we could accelerate the production of knowledge if people were to give higher focus on the smaller aspects of being. A teacher can teach more than about books. There was a practice before the invention of books and time went into a fritz. In a certain way I do look forward to the destruction of our inheritance. It is fascinating to consider, but I have certainly been consumed in the recollection of things past. I have a longing for more experience, though I don't know what this would look like. I am still exploring the best way to continue. As you may be able to tell, I am an active process with concepts gliding into consonance and friction with one another. There is something disagreeable with the world. Everything eventually works, but for enjoyment it takes up time. If it weren't for time, everything would be over already and we wouldn't experience anything. To experience something there is a context which is essential to its meaning. This is the main source of complexity of the individual. It is interesting to see the distances the mind can span. I believe teleportation is a possibility because I have experienced similar phenomenon in my mind.

M: It is interesting to see you get carried along. My questions don't seem to be given proper attention to.

W: Well, I understand what you're saying. Though it isn't technically a question, it has the same effect as one. If we were to consider a grammar based solely on the cognitive effect I think we would have a clearer, more aesthetic view. The aesthetic is of essential purpose to how I live my life, but I wonder if it isn't standing for a deeper ideal? To think in terms of intensity of eye movements in another way of expressing duration, which I having been toying with as a key to the good. It is amazing the access we have to the world. We can engage reality in so many different ways. We can sing, we can sleep, read, eat, view, converse. So many different end-points. You may be able to tell that I am a bit ambitious.

M: Yes, this is obvious, but inspiring. What explicitly are some goals you've set for yourself.

W: I hope to slip into death slowly. I would like to take more trips as a pure spirit until I am more fit to be a spirit than a being. I can imagine the course my attention will take. Some see this process and call it Alzheimer's, but I think it is a very positive process that makes death much more approachable. I hope to achieve such a rapport with the shell of existence that we pass effortlessly between one another. I have felt in my life the boundaries between me and the world grow thinner. I know I am on my way to both of these goals. Plus, I'd like a Grammy.

M: I find it fascinating that you on the one hand talking about another world while still clinging to culturally-derived purposes that seem a little hollow.

W: I admired culture as a machine to distribute energy and attention to different beings. I am happy to participate in the front-end of the machine. I think my work is valuable because I draw attention to the fact that culture is all mechanically produced. In this way I honor the substance, which I believe the substance appreciates.

M: Now you're giving the attribute of spirit to non-thinking substances. This seems to contradict earlier expressions you have made.

W: It is important to contradict yourself. If nothing was contested the world would surely end. The more things are contested then the better off we will be. There will be more to experience. This is an ancient view that serves as a foundation of rationality and science. I do consider myself in the modern tradition. If we honor this tradition and follow down its path then we may find ourselves in a new territory. A whole new dimension of time may appear, as I believe it has appeared to me.

M: You seem genuinely optimistic. I guess we have already talked about how this contrasts with your song?

W: I appreciate your insistence on bringing the conversation back to the song. As you may be able to tell my mind is elsewhere. Or rather, I am have had such experience with this song that it has spread itself over a vast domain. It is a forested area with animals lurking, hiding behind trees.

M: Well I am very happy to listen to you. You seem to be an interesting and interested woman. I enjoy spending time with you. What do you think I intend?

W: I am guessing you are asking whether our sexuality is natural or a learned cultural habit. Culture has everything to do with reproduction. We are born of culture. Culture is the real force that programs our behavior. Our parents are just acting out of their roles. So much of the time we interact, we are dealing with ideas. It is very interesting to hear the objects that are lifted in any conversation. This one, for example, has a very interesting power dynamic that is being negotiated. I hope to tell you that I am very pleased with this interview. Your comments may have crossed thresholds of politeness, but you must know that this fact pleases me greatly. I am happy that you insist on criticizing my speech-actions. More can be produced when friction is offered. Everything may be a form of fire. It should be controlled, but this setting has different rules than most conversational contexts. Though I speak theoretically, I believe more in practice, and in the practice of theory. I believe theory cuts us deeper than we know. Concepts have a way of showing up in everything. I realize that I have once again gotten away from the task at hand and am making this interview different from what is typically expected. I suppose most people don't want to be as self-important as me, but I give as I take.

M: You seem to have trouble focusing on a single line of reasoning. You make wide jumps and break off in tangents. Is this somehow essential to your method?

W: Thank you for the question. Yes, my belief in the equality of things leads me to the substitution of objects in my line of reasoning. I see everything as its frequency in my thoughts. I do posit that the mind is greater than system of objects, but only as a layer of complexity inside the greater reality. The life as it appears to the spirit is a symphony. It isn't about the instruments, its about their functions. This may be a minute differentiation, but when investigating the existence of time with a reductive approach, this becomes a foundational concept that, when you learn to see it, appears everywhere. It is a belief that has the power to change the durations of time as they appear to you. This is a great way to let your spirit hear intense music. The modulation of intensities is a good feeling.

M: You could just go on and on all day?

W: Yes. I am choosing not to take your sarcasm as a reproach to my behavior. I do have the confidence in myself. Achieving a successful record is a big part in my decision to come forward as someone who thinks. I don't think I should be ashamed about the reconsideration to afford everything. Situations are constantly changing and I think the change goes in both directions, from ideas to the world and from the world to ideas. One thing that appears as clear is that everything is a song. It is natural that I chose music as the medium on which I placed the most importance. I think the founding belief moving forward is that “it is music”. Music has been a product of practice, but the concept is flexible. I am interested in the movement to change the idea of what constitutes music. People are opening up the emotional range for what music can sound like. There is more and more music that is neither gay nor heavy. It is important to praise things that are indifferent. Developing indifference is the key to living in harmony. It might be a reconsideration of what is harmony in the first place. It is going to be a relative answer. Harmony is to be taken in the light of the sonic backdrop.

M: I guess I am developing a feel for what you're saying. There seems to be something cohesive in your insistence on abstract terms.

W: And you seem consistent too. You're a bit grouchy about going along with my effusions, which you don't let up, nonetheless. You seem to hear what I'm saying without becoming to attached, which I see as a positive quality of yours. Really you are behaving perfectly towards me, though I wouldn't mind if you didn't want to spin the theoretical wheel. This doesn't have to be an interview. It could be a dialogue. Perhaps that is why you are grouchy. You don't understand why I am the subject and you are the object, as you are outside the subject. Perhaps you would like to be an object too?

M: No, I think that would be overstepping the boundaries of this assignment.

W: No really I insist. If I am to take a transformative role in this society, I should begin with transforming the present aspects of my life.

M: Well I don't know where to start. I think everything you're saying is bullshit. I mean I work hard, and I expect to see some benefit. I think I am an extraordinarily simple machine. I mean, I will work for money. I clearly need money to live and I'm doing what it takes. I do what comes best to me. I may have a objective point of view. Maybe that's why I am having a difficulty in responding to you. I don't think you understand that I work differently from you. I don't think I should be changed. If you remove the scaffolding before the building's done, you're going to have workers clinging to the ledges. What am I saying? I don't know, but I think I'm done.

W: You're done speaking or you're done the interview?

M: I think you purposefully misunderstand me. What technique are you employing?

W: Yes, I was engaging in a taunt. What can I say? Taunting is a great deal of fun and gives me pleasure. I should think you enjoy a good taunt, though really you are such a serious man.

M: I suppose I am, but this is an interview and it's about you, unless you wish to hear my angry digressions.

W: I think you said something interesting, as inchoate as it was. It is true that there is little place for money in my view of the world. Perhaps money should be the foundation of my thoughts. In a way it is. I try novel approaches to the world sourced from the monetary value given to the novel and original. I suppose that if i want to be paid for my wisdom it should be something that sheds new light on the universe. We all have access to the ancient wisdom and it seems like these approaches are made obsolete by new technology. What we view as real has been changed through the use of optical illusions. We live in a much larger world that has different values. There may still be use of good and bad as in the ancient tradition, though we have a less austere aesthetic in these days.

M: So how often does the world change? How often should you turn over old ideas? Either it is happening all the time or not at all.

W: I I think that new technologies are the avenue of change. As we develop new functions we should reconsider who it is that we think we are. Revolutions are led by technology, which i think is something that has always been true. The French Revolution was the logical progression of the development of cities. Cities seem may not seem like a technology but there is a great deal of technical knowledge needed to produce a city. There is technique involved in administering a city, doing things like collecting garbage and distributing food. People were in greater communication. There is technique in communication. We saw people with ideas and these ideas had their way.

M: Do you see yourself leading a revolution of sorts?

W: I am using an existing technology in a novel way. Recording and music technology has changed the function of sound in society. Music used to be exquisite. Today it is so pervasive that it does not feel this pressure. Music previously had a high degree of complexity within a relatively short duration. Now I think that it is more complex but over a much longer duration. There are people who listen to music for nearly the whole day through. They are listening to much simpler musics, but of a greater range of style, mood, and intensity. Music in the seventeen hundreds all had the same timbres-- there weren't many more sounds than the violin or the piano. Now we see much more timbres afforded with the invention of the synthesizer. Music today seems to be exploring these timbres and seeing what functions they serve. This is really two different features, quality and function. Music is good so long as it constantly produces differences. I think it would be interesting to meld the former interest in harmony with the new interest in timbre. I think very interesting music could be produced in this manner. But here I am talking about music when I think you are more interested in the poetics of my approach.

M: This is certainly true. I am interested in messages and how they impact lives. Could you speak more about how you take a different approach to propaganda through your art?

W: I do not think that there should be a radically different approach for controlling the messages in music. I think we are refining our ability to tell stories. The main aspect of storytelling I find interesting is the use of time. A completely true story would be unreadably long and the more you are interested in following this path, the longer your story will be. It becomes an infinite task. All stories are imperfect, or perhaps I have trouble in glossing wider themes. I do sometimes get lost in the details. I do not have a mind that works in simultaneity, but rather have my attention focused on one thing at a time, but images do move faster than words. To represent a mental states only in words is reductive. I would be interested in a cinema that made use of internal narratives as well as pictures. I would be happy if there were more movies like Seul. This picture seemed to be the birth of a new genre, though it was hampered by it's dark theme.

M: I'm wondering if I should ask all of my questions until you answer them. Should I insist on these questions until you answer them or should I move on, pretending that I am satisfied by your wandering reason?

W: This question is one you should decide on your own. If you feel that a question is important and deserves redress then you should persist. It seems however that your questions are open invitations for me to respond. It seems that any answer will do. Your motivation is in being able to have me produce a quantity of text to be reproduced by your magazine. My answers all have something of interest in them though they are not largely guided by your promptings. This isn't a criminal investigation-- there is no actions that my response may lead to. For this reason i feel free in responding as I see fit. I could respond more directly to your questions, but I fear that in doing so the force of logic would leave me. If you want to ask a question again I would be pleased to answer it in a different way-- it would be an unusual practice, but this in itself is something I would desire in an ideal interview.

M: Well, then, what do you see as your role in a revolutionary politics?

W: I suppose I would be opposed to a revolution as they have been typically carried out. I see the purpose of the state to be in preventing violence. More could be done and this would be my goal in the purview of politics. There is still a great deal of crime that occurs as the result of poverty, but we seem to be more concerned with the random violence associated with insanity. Terrorism is the sort of insane crime that we seek to stop. It isn't typical to view terrorists as mad, but they seem to me to be unreasonable. I guess I am would say religious fervor is a type of madness, though there is some tolerance given to this particular affliction. The religious tend to offer the excuse that violence is not a part of the practice they espouse, but a record of history accounts a different story.

M: I find it interesting that you attempt to break paradigms of thought but remain normative regarding outside lines of reasoning. Aren't those you term insane attempting to break out of existing logical paradigms, which is something you advocate?

W: Yes, i do believe you have caught me. I support an individuals decision to become mad. There is a difference between making using evidence to support unusual beliefs and choosing an usual belief from default. I think many people classified as mad see the refutation of past theories and outright lying as evidence that nothing is to be believed. When you consider it, much of what we think we know is communicated not through observation, but is reported to us. We rely on the principle that there is a will to express the truth. When people reject this view there is a tendency for their life to come crashing down. As people we are able to do very complex actions. With the phenomenal view of the world that I try on from time to time it becomes very difficult to perform as expected. Taking the view that all creation is a miracle a lot of basic assumptions are overturned and the subject is paralyzed. The higher level assumptions about what society is are not there. I give high value to the phenomenal view and think that it can lead to important revelations about how to move forward with civilization, but it is no way to live a daily life. I find it important to do what is expected of the average American consumer, like watching television, making small talk and posting banal things on the Internet.  

M: Thank you for your time. You win.

W: It has been a pleasure.

Who Are You?

Who are you?

I am a man, I can tell this much. By this I mean there is a piece of meat dangling between my legs. The function, to recreate myself. I have been around forever in one form or another. I don't believe what they say, the lack of fossil records for humans in the past means that there are no records, not that there wasn't humans. Yeah, I am saying I don't believe in evolution, I think humans have been around for as long as the planet has, which is forever. I say this, but I don't entirely believe it. We got our heads wrapped around the clock and we don't understand time. Time might be a really groovy beast. I know because I have experienced other dimensions before. I have been tuned into different wave lengths. Suddenly I don't see the function of the day, I am seeing things geologically. Everything looks different. The things you would observe about a place are flipped on their head. I forget somethings and remember others. Is this a statement about me or about the functions of time? I don't see why I shouldn't be able to remember everything. I bet there will be invented a memory drug that takes you back. I don't know if you can change things, maybe. There are people investing in this kind of pharmaceutical technology. It will change the way we think about life. Life will become something else. We are driven by what we think the good life is. I think the common conception is that the good life involves a lot of travel. I wouldn't argue with this. If I could be doing anything, money no object, I would be living in a hotel, getting high daily, and focusing in on the lives of the people I dream. I dream about a lot of people who are not me. I hope I am answering the question. I start somewhere and go somewhere else. This is what I mean by travelling. I am travelling all the time. My thoughts roam freely. I think I am doing what I want. I would still rather be living in a hotel, or maybe a series of hotels. A bunch of hotels in one city, within walking distance, or maybe I would take a cab. I think you can learn a lot about a person from what they would rather be doing, because you know, it is kind of rare to find someone who is doing exactly what they would like to be doing. For instance, even the hotel thing I been saying is not quite accurate. I have this image in my mind of a man, naked, running through the woods and diving off a cliff into a cool body of water. This is what I think of when I think of the good life. This is what it looks like to me, but I'm not sure I would like to be this guy, because it would involve some unpleasant feelings, I mean an elevated heart rate and maybe soreness in the legs. I mean this is why I would prefer hotels. I guess my image of the good life is the primitive life, the life of Adam, but I'm alone on this one. I think most people would say the life of a celebrity, which has a lot to do with hotels, is the good life. It would be good to get in the consciousness of the times, I mean, I would like to tell people what to think. I think I been thinking for long enough that I could teach a course in being happy while completely unoccupied, but when am I ever unoccupied? I guess I'm a hypocrite. So sue me, I'm a hypocrite. Am I, or do I just have a different vision of myself, one that doesn't match the statistical representation of my daily life? Which me do you want to hear from, the me who I am or the me who I aspire to be? To tell the truth, the me I am is the me I aspire to be. Strictly speaking, just as the me that inhabits this body. What I mean is that my aspirations are a big part of who I am. It's hard to think of myself without thinking of the future. That's where I am going, and that is what I am interested in. I would like this drug that makes you relive the past. I think that actually is what MDMA is, though you have to take a lot to get clear visions. I'm just messing with you, not really. Though when I last took this drug I was visited by waves of memories. I like the word wave. It's easy to forget that everything is a wave. Can I change my answer? I would no longer like to be identified as a man, I would like to identify myself as a wave.

Well, I can ask the question again and you can start all over.

Okay, yes, do that please.

Okay. Who are you?

I am a wave. I am made of the same stuff everything else is. There is a big fabric that extends across the universe and I am a protuberance. Certain patterns have converged and they make up the place I represent. I think an almost better question to ask would be “where am I?” because although I process information in a particular way, the location I inhabit has more to do with my reportage than what makes me up. This is true if you are familiar with people. I admit, I am the type of wave known as a person, plural: people, but I don't know why I explain this. I am treating you a bit like an alien. I am assuming you don't know anything. I guess typically when people ask who someone is, it is typical to reply with a word that refers only to that one specific iteration of person. This specific word is known as a name, but I am sure you know this. You appear to be an adult man, which means that you have years of experience on this planet. I say “this planet” as if there were other planets to belong to, or be from, but as far as we know this is not true. I suppose the odds would have it that there would be another planet, one with people like us, but what are the odds they speak English? I speak English, among other languages. It is the most comfortable for me and I think is a quite effective language. When you hear the things I am saying I am sure that you are thinking of things to say as well. This is an odd process for me because I am not used to speaking uninterrupted for so long. So If you don't mind I would ask you to perhaps ask another question, or preferably-- how about this, who are you?

My name is Miles Jurgen and I am conducting an interview with you. Although you asked me to ask you my first question a second time, it was fully my intention to ask you this question twice, or even more. In fact, “Who are you?” is the only question I intend to ask, repeating it until you are exhausted of answers. Are you satisfied by this response?

Miles, you know what, I am, and the reason is that you seem like an honest guy. I think you're trying something weird and I respect that. It is good to try different things. I don't ever remember reading an interview with one question. I am sorry if I have tainted the purity of your pursuit.

Although you have tainted the purity of my pursuit, I wouldn't say that this sort of thing is outside of my expectations for the process. I figured a question would be put to me. It is, after all, only fair.

Good, good, I'm glad we're on the same page. Is there anything you'd like to ask me?

Yes. Who are you?

Well unlike some people I know, I was born in a place. Upstate New York, a place called Canadanega. It's up near Ithaca. It means the Chosen Spot. Its called that because of the freshwater trout that fills the lake. It's near Ithaca and Geneva, two places associated with the idea of war. See, I'm an ancient warrior. It was what I born to do. I was born to fight. I joined the service for the first Gulf War and did my time. Now I'm having trouble, because in my opinion I shouldn't have to work anymore. I did my time and think that the government I fought for should support me. I'm not really fit for civilian life. I am much too crazy to hold a menial job. Now if you wanted to employ me in a think tank, that would be another story. I am comfortable in tanks. I like the military connotations of this enterprise. I know how to get around in a tank. The thinking part, well you may be able to tell, but I am a versatile thinker. There are many correct answers to any given question. The question is, which answer is the best? The best answer depends on what you're trying to accomplish. Who are you trying to convince and what are you trying to convince them of? In general it is best to be truthful, truthful to yourself, truthful to others, but these two truths may conflict. The truth to you may be my name. My name might be the most truthful way to answer your question, to you. To me, a person is much deeper than their name. Names are given arbitrarily. A name doesn't name a person's qualities. Now, I'm not sure a person has particular qualities. To understand what a person is capable of you need to see them perform in a particular situation. You can tell if someone is a warrior or not depending on how they behave in a situation of war. Did he retreat or did he fight to the death? The person who fights to the death is born to exist as a memory. Its hard to meet a person who would fight to the death, because they did and now they are dead. You may be that person before you're in the situation, but there is no way to know until it happens. I wish I could look at you and know what was going to happen to you in all the stages of your life. By stages I mean scenarios. Life is all stages. Its a drama, the best way to explain it. Surely there is someone watching, someone above us or below us. Or maybe not. Maybe the performers are playing for their own benefaction. But usually there is an audience, though they are part of the performance as well. We would still put on the play even if no one showed up, we rehearsed the thing, and so rarely is it that no one cares. Great thing about this world is that everyone cares. We like to think that everyone is so wrapped up in bureaucratic procedure that you might as well be talking to a forklift, but no, people are alive and want to see life. Really, that is what has gotten me through so many times. I can always depend on the kindness of strangers. That's a line from a play, but it works for me. You know, I go around, tell people my story and ask them for money. Its a rare occasion that I meet someone like you who wants so much patter, but I do it all for the dollar. Life is a game you see, and money are the points. You gotta score points if you want to keep playing. There are interesting ways you can get points and I am trying some of these outside methods. It, for me, panhandling, is the most direct way to play the game. I present a problem and let people help solve it. I interrogate their values and let the figure out how much they are worth--how much their values are worth, how much they, as people, are worth. I figure both sides get something out of the exchange. I, of course, get more, but that is because I am needy. You know, I'm in need. It is an uncomfortable game I'm playing, it really is quite exhausting. I am just walking around all day, looking for good marks. I mean good grades and people who will give me money. Its a particular type of person, though they come in all shapes and sizes. I guess the best mark is someone who looks like they are insane. They should be wary of me, I am after a dangerous killer, by which I mean a desperate guy who has been to war, but they aren't and when they are not I just know they will help me and I don't let them go until they have. It can be uncomfortable to both of us. I'm an unusual panhandler because I have a high target. You can get a bunch of one dollar bills or you can get big scores. Ask and you shall receive. It doesn't happen all that often but it happens enough to merit this approach. I think I'm worth it and my story is worth it and I have corroborating evidence and I think I can pull it off, and guess what, it works. Now, I wish what the government gave me was enough, but it just doesn't comport with my lifestyle. I don't cook myself. Well, I barely cook. I just can't bring myself to do it. I guess I don't know what kind of food I like. Eating is the biggest struggle. I know I have to do it, I just wish there was another way. Well, I seem to have run out of steam.

Who are you?

I guess you caught me in a lie. I'm not who I said I was. I was pretending I was someone I have met. I guess that would make me an actor. Or no, maybe a liar. No, just an actor. We aren't doing anything serious here, right? You're just interested in running your little experiment. You don't need to know who I am. You're just interested in what I might say to answer this question. This isn't a matter of national security, and you're not with the lottery commission. It doesn't matter like that. I suppose it would be best to give a truthful response, but lying fits better with the way I see the world. Who is a person anyway? They seem to me to be inter-replaceable. In many ways, but not quite. I guess anyone could be working in McDonald's, but not anyone could be a college professor. I am a college professor. I teach the Humanities, all of them. Humanities in general. I take a very idiosyncratic approach. Its like philosophy but less specific. Philosophy became something very specialized and the deeper you get into it seems like the less you know. Most people have the wrong idea about Plato. He says one thing and means another, which is something people don't grasp, at least not the first time through. Plato had one sided dialogues, something like what we are engaged in right now. I wish I could answer your question, but it seems like what I really want to do is to talk about Plato and Socrates. It is very tricky business. What they attempt to do, almost always, is to work with definitions. They try to define concepts. Sometimes I don't think that it is philosophy at all, but just an outside form of literature. That is the approach I take. I am more interested in the polite tone Socrates takes than the arguments he makes. You always know where the argument is going to go. Well, not always. It will always be dismissed as incorrect is what I mean. But sometimes even the incorrect definitions are the ones that stick, for instance, the definition of knowledge that is commonly assumed. Who am I? I am a sophist. I believe that truth should not be held as a standard, but only function. I am uninterested in the truth. I only care about what works. Is that sophistry or science? Take your pick. They are quite different concepts. I know that I am not a philosopher, even though I have the tendency to ramble on and am never satisfied by my own answers. Perhaps I am a philosopher. It does seem that I am chasing some sort of elusive dragon that will bring about my demise. What does this mean? I know you didn't ask, but maybe you should. I guess I am commenting still upon your process of repeating the same question. Maybe every question should be repeated until the subject is exhausted. But the worry is that the question will never be exhausted. Perhaps I am unique, in that I am the only subject willing to play this game with you. Is that a good enough answer? You see, you've asked the question enough times that you don't need to ask it anymore. I will continue puzzling this prompt, researching myself, knowing that nothing will ever sate you. Will any answer sate you? It appears to me that people hate questions. I mean, just generally. Most often you will receive a minimal response. This is perhaps untrue, I mean, I can remember people giving responses that go on and on and thinking, what a simple question, and I didn't ask for all this. I wonder now what the point of human communication is anyway. What is the point of this instance of human communication? What am I trying to achieve? Is speech a corollary to action? Are we trying to coordinate some other action to take place? I would definitely think so. I think I am communicating with you in the hope that someone hears my message and will want to dance with me. My hope is that someone will read this and be able to gauge the deep uncertainty I feel and will appropriately dance with me. I want every moment to stand as a question and the response be given with proper ceremony and primordial force. I myself would not know how this is done. What was your question again?

Who are you?

I am a dancer wearing a sash. I am a bull awaiting a ribbon for my horns. I am a sycophant in line for the bathroom. I am a wolf in daylight, recalling the sight of the moon. I am a surge of power that destroys your electronic devices. I am a worm on a hook, wriggling. I am a demi-god demanding sacrifices in exchange for verdant harvests. I am a lizard under a rock in the desert of your mind. I am a libertine, dancing with senoritas, scratching their palms with my middle finger. I am the destroyer of worlds, looking for bad worlds that deserve destroying. Not all will be pitied. Some will be punished. Just as an experiment of course. To see if their behavior changes. There is no evidence that this sort of punishment works. It is not a corrective punishment. It is a harm management. You see this phrase captured something of my imagination. I would never destroy a world, no matter how miserable it was. Would the cosmos be better off without hell? What good would the light be in a world of seeing? We live in a world bathed in darkness. The chiaroscuro is beautiful, the way the two play together. Do I have to prompt you, or is my silence enough?

Who are you?

I am in between jobs right now. I answer your question with a mention of time because over the course of time I have become many different things, many different people. And interestingly enough, I have a pretension of things to come. I can feel the future, and believe I have seen it in my dreams. I don't know whether I should share this with you, what specifically fate has in store for me, but I should let you know that it all has already happened. It is just waiting for the time to become again. Slowly everything is becoming again. In my dreams the past and the future and all of time meet and tell me the truth of all of it. The truth of the whole thing, looked at forward or backwards. Sometimes my dreams affect my daily life. As in I tell people about my dreams, or I think about them in quiet meditation. I don't know how it all works, but it must be more complex then the simple answer given to us by our rulers. They believe in chaos, or the easy god, with very little reverence for the things they know. But why must I always descend into hatred? I speak about the minds of other people, an experience I have very little experience with. It is must more useful if I speak my own mind. But here I run into the problem of saying things you already know. If I assume I know nothing about the thoughts of others I would spend a long time explaining things that are quite basic, though perhaps in a manner you are unaccustomed to. I don't know, what was your question?

Who are you?

I'm a dragonfly.

Who are you?

I'm a swordfish.

Who are you?

I am flowing hot magma.

Who are you?

You see I am trying to get on rhythm with you. I don't know if you prefer long drawn out responses or short terse replies. I guess I could do either, but it should be clear by now that I prefer long-form answers. If I already know the question and know that I can never give an answer that will satisfy you, so there is really no reason for you to even ask the question. Perhaps if you do not fill my silences with your questions you would still get the answers you seek. I am perhaps tiring of this game, but maybe I can try answering you with a different tact, though I don't know, it seems like I have tried everything. Who am I? I appear as a four-limbed creature who possesses his own will. I am able to manipulate your mind with sounds I emit from one of my face-holes. “Who are you?” from me to you, would be an important question to consider in order to give an appropriate response. You seem to be a creature very similar to me. What this means is that there is a hidden side to you. You are experiencing things that would not appear obvious. You have images that you see with your eyes and images that you see with your mind. The things you see with your eyes, how to describe it? What is there? You just know. Your eyes give you knowledge about the state of things that surround you. At the same time, there is a similarity between all things, so you are able to create new things that aren't actually there and it is as if you can see them, as if you can know them. But you know that all the synthetic objects you create with your mind are bracketed and do not necessarily exist. The imagination is a wonderful organ. We can see into the future with this organ. We see into the future by seeing into the past. We can re-see certain events, usually the strangest events. The events that are too similar are lost and we know we cannot remember them but can only imagine them. They are possibilities, not events. You see, when I get thinking for myself, and not assume things that everyone knows, I get rather confused and hung up on the basic facts of existence. I have this problem where think too much about the beginning of things, try to recapture the event of the origin, the origin of eyes, for example, and try to reproduce in myself the feelings that one most have encountered when this technology was first developed. I would think that the first creature with eyes thought that he or she possessed a god-like knowledge. It must have been a tremendous advantage. I have to wonder whether this creature was on of my ancestors or if the gift of vision was given to multiple creatures at the same time. Still, for all of them, it must have felt like a tremendous gift. The difference between seeing and not seeing is a whole world. I know there are people who can't see who are still human, and they get along remarkably well, but I would bet they agree that vision is a marvelous gift. Of course I know that vision developed gradually perhaps, and at first the creature knew some and successive generations of creatures knew more. It makes me wonder if a new form a vision could develop. Perhaps there will be a new organ that will just know, at first just a little and with successive generations more and more. I wonder if logic is that sense. I wonder if it is possible to know the future, if you just try to figure out, based on the past, what is likely to develop. I would think that with an active enough mind that anything could be determined. But what kind of thoughts would need to occur to predict the future? One of the first things you would have to know is the set of number you are dealing with. There are 8 billion people on this planet. If you can figure out what they will do you could figure out the future. I think people will do what ever they can. People are a form of fire and need to be in constant motion. I mean they sleep, but this isn't doing nothing. This is the good life. To dream is good. It is the highest pleasure there is in life. Even dreams of fear can be marvelous. But anyway, the things people do are determined by the objects they have around them to work with. People interact with objects. People are objects too, in some degrees. Back to an earlier point, I said there would have to be a new organ to give us knowledge and I think that the mind is this organ. It has certainly developed over the years. People are having more thoughts than ever. I can tell by looking into the eyes of a cat that the cat is not thinking very often. Wonderful creatures cats are, but they are not the forefront of evolution like people so clearly are. We do have a problem with human evolution in that the most intelligent people are not reproducing more than people with less money. I heard Lucien Freud had thirty children and I think he is doing his part. I just don't understand why millionaires aren't keeping harems. If the human project is going to work they really have to be producing as many children as they can afford. But maybe Bill Gates is a moron and it is good that he doesn't have four-hundred children. I would if I were him and hey, it's possible that I might have hundreds of children. I'm still producing potent semen. I know maybe it is inappropriate to talk about this and I apologize. I told you, first thing I said, I got meat between my legs. I am a man. It is an important part of my identity. It is important as far as you are a man as well and not a woman. If you were a woman, I perhaps would not have identified myself. I would have engaged in subterfuge, because what I'd really be after is producing children with you. I like thinking about reproduction because it gives you the long view of history. I mean I think about the origin of sex. I mean, in the beginning there was a thing and it would double itself. Somewhere along the line it took two things to create a new one. I wonder why this was. Perhaps to make sure that new ones weren't produced too often, but this is an unsatisfactory answer. Bodies that undergo mitosis don't always have overpopulation problems. Maybe sex exists to ensure variation. Variation is the way we move forward. Maybe Gates knows that he has not evolved. He would prefer variation to the propagation of his own traits. I'm not sure. When you really investigate evolution I am not sure it holds up. Really, it is quite an amazing idea, that with the right conditions people like us just become. Become out of nothing. Well there was never nothing. There was always something. This is quite a hard concept to grasp, that there was always something. It doesn't make sense to us, we who at one point did not exist. You got to wonder that, if there has always been something, whether we existed as an prior idea. There are so many ideas of so many different people and I predict they will all occur. I think we will live on this planet for ever. So right now, I am having pretensions-- I can see the people of the future, a different species, looking back on us. I can see them in their future libraries, researching ancient history. What would this species be like? They would just know all sorts of things that we have to find out. To them it would be an art, all the things we do with science. They would long to live in our world. They would think that it was a marvelous time to be alive, overlooking the terror of violence, which, honestly, is fading away at this point. I don't know, did I answer your question?

Less and less every time. Who are you?

Less and less? Please don't offend me. I am doing hard work entertaining you. I am trying to explain who I am and it does require recourse to biology to do this. Evolution is who I am. It is the metaphysics of becoming that pertains to me. I don't know whether our knowledge of the process of becoming means we should use our knowledge or if we should follow our hearts. Maybe Bill Gates can't get it up for anyone but Melinda. I feel that he is just being conventional, and that is just who he is. I must be a true freak to go along with you. You must be a freak to be running such an unconventional interview. I'm feeling proud of us, Miles, we're doing a good job of creating memories. Remember what I said, memories are created by differences. No one can remember things that are conventional, the same. You remember something when something different happened. Speaking of which, what was your question again?

Who are you?

Yes, I'm just joking, I remember your question. I was just going to say that repetition is a form of difference. I had to make that caveat because it is true that we remember things that recur. In my theory of memory, if repetition isn't a form of difference, well the damn thing breaks down, but it makes some sense right? We are looked into a life of repetition. I mean the sun comes up and it goes down. It get hot, it gets cold, it gets hot. At least for us up here, located North. There are some people who believe the earth is shaped like a torus, or a doughnut. This is crazy because we have seen photographs of the Earth taken from beyond the Earth. Still, they say that its apparent roundness is an optical illusion. I, personally, would prefer to live on a doughnut shaped Earth. I think it is more interesting than a sphere, more complicated. But yeah, some things recur, but it's just some, like most things, it happens and are lost. We crave repetition. We live in homes, seeing the same places over and over. As I said, I would prefer to live in hotels where everything would be different. But I'm not answering your question, am I? Am I saying that we are memories, or that we are recurrent entities? I don't know what I mean by recurrent entities, so I must mean that we are memories. Yeah, that's how I got here. I must be saying the same things over again. Have I run out of original way to answer your question? I must be saying things I've already said, though its okay because it is in a different context now. I really do enjoy some things that recur. I'm not sure about my opinion on recurrence. I can't make up my mind, or you know what, maybe it's not a valid category of experience. All this other stuff I have said have been things I have thought about before, its a bunch of stocked quotables, but not really. But this I really have to work my way through. Repetition. Is it even possible? The example I am thinking of is “studying for an exam.” You read the same thing again and again until it has made a strong impression on you. It is unforgettable after you have reread it. I wonder if there is a physical process that matches the spiritual process. I mean, I wonder if it makes the neurons that contain the information swell up in size or something, or load up with charge. I know, neurons are a can of worms, you open it up and they're out, slithering on the floor and you don't want to pick them up because they are slimy, gross and weird, so know you got worms on the floor and you got to tell the kids to watch out for the worms on the floor and not to step on them, and you leave the door open hoping they'll find their way out, but they don't, they just writhe to death, and then they die and they are actually less gross dead so you pick them up and a few got squished under the feet of your children, but you have a vacuum so you decide to vacuum them up, but that was a gross decision and you get rid of your vacuum, and all I'm saying is that is what talking about the brain is like. It might be a useful pursuit some day, but today is not that day, But basically what I was going to say that each neuron is like one word. Does this make sense? It's how I would build a brain, but you know what talking about the brain is like. It's like talking about dead worms, and I, for one, do not want to talk about dead worms. I much rather be talking about the mind. I think there are some technologies we could design for the mind still. For instance, some technology that makes people happy. I think I could build a book that would make people happy, but it would have a lot of instructions and would have to be used like all the time. Yeah I'm talking about writing a new bible. In the future, people will always be revising their own bible. People will write their own instruction manual. Just one of my predictions, but I haven't done too rigorous of a thought-experiment to determine this. I can imagine it, but maybe it is on a television, or whatever device they are using, program and an object of ridicule. I'm just saying I'm planning on writing my own bible and I'm going to use and it an carry it around and it will be nothing like the things I'm saying now, it will be very specifically designed based on test results. It will be precise and to the point. It won't be conversational, but what bible is? I am enjoying this conversation, if that is what you would call it, and I wouldn't, but you're still standing there, and it really makes a difference. I am aware of you and am not behaving as if you were not there. But anyway, I think I am ready to re-answer your question, if you will.

Who are you?

I am the most beautiful woman in history. I have a face that launched a thousand ships. I do what I wish and am not tied down to the conventions and legal boundaries of marriage. I, like I said, do as I wish. Sometimes it is nice to get away. I never knew that I would live so long, and honestly it has been a nice run. Have you guessed my name? Surely you have. I believe I have provided you with enough material to make a positive identification. Next question.

Who are you?

I could answer this question with so many categories, though I may exist at the intersection of all these. These are categories of experience that I share with many others. Perhaps this type of response would be more appropriate if I could answer in the plural, as in we are... We are black people, we are women, we are smokers. I admit that I may be indistinguishable from others that belong to the same categories. I wish I could could answer for myself alone, but the categories of identity don't exist to give me a unique identity. I can only identify myself in a way that thousands of others would be included. Perhaps if I were more schooled in the way people divide themselves I would be able to enumerate enough categories to limit the possibility of existence to me alone. As it is, I'm just not that creative. So I must answer this question in the plural. It feels good to stand together with others. Sometimes I worry that I may be the center of the universe, but when I look at things with the aforementioned perspective I feel less important, which relieves some of the pressure of being. It is hard existing knowing that every moment could be my last. You see I have a condition were I am highly prone to strokes. It could strike at any time and I would simply collapse and die. Still, I choose to be alone, mostly. This is dangerous, because if I were with people it is more likely that in the event that something were to happen to me, I could be given help. But really what help can they give? I should know this, given my condition, but I try to live lightly. If this is the only life I will ever have I want it to be fun. I approach everything like a game. Of course, I live to win. I do okay. Sometimes I don't connect the dots as quickly as I could, but I am capable of synthesizing knowledge and seeing the bigger picture, which is all the glory I need. You win the game by discovering the rules. Once you have the rule book, it becomes much easier. The hard part is that there are an infinite number of rules. But some is still better than none. A lot of people think they have the rules, but they only have an outline. I mean the religious. They think that a single book could provide all the direction one needs in life. It is true that they are referring to a very rich and complicated manual, but they don't work their way up to it. They don't have the analytical tools to make sense of the work. There are principles of light and darkness in everything. I find it easier to simplify things and abstract them. Understanding that everything has a physical quality makes it easier to comprehend and to work with. All language has elements of light and darkness. It is hard to see without both elements present. There exists language that is too heavily one or the other. I find mathematics to be too heavily light and French and German philosophy too heavily dark. It is good training for the eyes, the eyes of the mind I mean, but it is not the conditions one would desire to live in. It's true that I have investigated books, trying to learn what they offer. When I was young it became apparent that life was awfully complex and that being new to the planet I could do with more experience. I don't believe that direct experience is the only good experience. I believe you can almost learn more from virtual experience, like the experience you glean from art, specifically books and films. The truest experience of a piece of art occurs after the first experience. The way the things are assembled resembles memories or recollections. It is the best experience of piece when you know what will happen, just as the recorder of the experience does. This is an example of the ways that I differ from average expectations. I would assume that most people read a book once, drink the juices that come from the thrill of discovery and move on. It is truly a deeper experience when you remember a text. It is so hard to find a good piece of media that I have to explore it as deeply as I can. How does this relate to your question? I believe identity is constituted of memories. I live for memories. I am always trying to create a memorable experience. I try all sorts of different techniques to make moments last. I feel profoundly sad when I notice that I am living in a moment that will be lost. I remember watching the clock, waiting for a casserole to finish cooking and thinking, this small moment of time, so painful to endure, this moment of waiting, it means nothing to me and will surely be forgotten. I can't remember most of my life. I have spent so much time in conversation and remember so little of what is said. I wish I could recall every joke that I have ever laughed at, but when I try to think of these things I can remember nothing. If you asked me for a joke I would be at a loss, though so much of my time is absorbed in jokes. An interesting feature of memory is that it can composite. I spend a lot of time in bed staring at my ceiling fan, but I cannot recall a specific time I stared at this device. Instead, I can imagine just what it looks like and can generally characterize my thoughts while staring. It blurs the line between memory and imagination. It is a fascinating divide. The two shouldn't seem too close, but they are very similar processes. I mean we think of something specific when with think of both these terms. We think of the object of thought and not the process of thought. Processionally, the two types of thought are identical. It is the way they reference the truth that divides them. When we look at the “what”, the two processes look different, but when we look at the “how” they look the same. In the game of capitalism, or life in general, there is an advantage to be given to the person with a different perspective. Difference is marked, not similarity. I would suggest trying out a vision of existence asking the question “how?” instead of “what?” Right? I'm criticizing your question, which I think you repeat to prove its absurdity. “Who” is the “what” in reference to subjects. “How” is a much more open question. It raises causality. “How” always refers to a period of time. “What” is frozen. While “what” may be appropriate to ask a rock, it is an inappropriate question to ask a person. “Who are you?” is a way to ask someones' name or profession and little else. It is a useful question in the game of life, but that is not what you are doing here, is it? I think we a performing a comedy. You have asked me a simple question and are getting a very complex response. I still, for instance, haven't given you my name. In some ways it is more comfortable a question than “how are you?” which generally refers to feelings. Feelings are a way we categorize thought. We have a block of text that runs through our mind and we give it a simple category, though these thoughts may be about a feeling we have. Are feelings are the results of thoughts or are thoughts the results of feeling? This returns us to the absurdity of causality. There doesn't appear to be an order to things. It is all happening at once. Which you must know already. This is why you ask one question, because you know that they all mean the same thing. The all seek a similar response. Is this what I mean? I feel like I am not expressing myself well. I am saying words, but they are not the ones I really think. I mean I think them and that is evident because I expressed them, but I have a feeling for what I was saying, but it was like seeing. You can't convert an image directly into words, and the way I feel about this concept was like seeing. It came in a flash and made itself clear but then was gone. I hope I have said enough to give you an impression of what I meant. Maybe I should repeat again that there is no causality. It is a radical concept that goes against a very common sense view of the world. But there have been small events in my life that have convinced me that this is the case. It would appear generally that things can cause other things, but this is an illusion. In truth, everything is simultaneous. This doesn't appear to make sense, but the key word was truth. The true exists outside of time. We know this. Things that are true are true forever. This is what gives the word force. The light switch is turned off. This is true, but what happens when the light is turned on? The statement is no longer true. Well, it was true at the time. Does this contradict the statement that truth has no relation to time? I don't know, but it still feels right. I don't know what your interest in this argument is, I was just trying to take a different perspective because I think it is useful to try. It can be dangerous, I warn you, but it generates a lifetime of interest. I mean, it is interesting to investigate outside perspectives. It is a way of alleviating boredom. Happiness is a result of activity. I am trying to teach you to be happy, and also convince myself that I am happy. It's not all about you. I may be addressing you and answering your questions, but I speak for myself, at least at this point. There is so much more I would like to say, but I feel exhausted. Do you mind if we stop?

Who are you?

Scott Redding. Do you mind?

Thank you for you co-operation.