the authority is you

Your masters are blind to you.  

There will be one set of instructions per caste.

the east has met the west.

Europe is catching up to history.

China has 5000 years of unbroken history.

Some experts say 3000 years.

Greece is seat of Europe.

Greece lives under anarchy.

Implication: Europe will evolve into anarchy.  

WIll life be better?

It's getting better all the time.  

I am not a post-modernist.

they believe that things were getting better, but now they are getting worse.

this is implied through their parodies of the way we KNOW reality is.

Because we all experience the same type of reality. 

This is very hard to accept. 

When we are children we don't know that we can conceive of ourselves.

we start life as another. 

Our living independence we must learn.

i want to buy a pair of brass rings just for fashions sake.  

I had a fantasy where i could design battle wear for the rest of my life.  

the models would move like boxers.

tough ass shit for women.  

shit for gay men.    

These are the things your master wants to know.

your master is a decent man.  

He wouldn't like to see something indecent.  

I was disappointed when mary helena neglected to bring a camera to my one-time only performances.  

Drew's boyfriend died of AIDS.

Walter died.  

Dad died. 

It turns out the death of my father was an act of justice. 

He was a brutal beast that kept my mother hostage. 

like some kind of Catholic pimp.  

The call it love.  

I am someone who has seen the reach of cosmic justice.  

Part of granting people independence is to understand that they undergo the same quest for autonomy.  

For there is nothing else our master's ask, other than for us to behave decently to one another.  

the master wants peace.  

The proletariat can not get what he wants by seizing power.  

the proletariat must look into himself.

One of the assumptions about the proletariat is that he is retarded.  

But he is not retarded.  

his days are as long as anybody else's.

He has a different sense of memory.  

that is different things set him off. 

farts make him laugh for instance.  

It's an obscene disposition for sure. 

you learn this after detaching from your mother.  

it's easier to detach when you are granted personal space. 

sleep is amazing.  

It's the key to longevity.  

It is the key to transcendence.

sleep as much as possible,

If you can access your dreams, you are heaped with personal riches.  

you learn to think and become proactive.  

Dreaming helps you run scenarios and make decisions, sometimes you can run the experiment twice.  

I try to redream the same dream if it's been really pleasant.  

I have difficulties but i'm mostly successful.  

drinking alcohol is helpful to actively dreaming.

However it is unpleasant.  

You won't be able to remember, though you will recall a sense of autonomy.  

You're dreams are for you to live in.  

Dreaming will replace the cinema.

People will go to the movies for naps.  

open your eyes, close your eyes. 

Scary dreams are fun.  

I got to stab a man in the back for my freedom, how cool is that?

Recent Readings:
Sam Shepard's cruising paradise. knowingly called a collection of tales.  and we have journal selections dialogues and by and large narratives, all stamped with date and location, and a wide range of locations he writes from, most notably, the Badlands and Mexico, the book has a sharp Juan Rulfo quote, and i had a dream last night that i was given a Juan Rulfo book and I was very excited to read it. GB the Internet.

dogwalker by arthur bradford- has some real speedy paced stuff, very palatable and contained weird ideas that weren't oversold.  Economical, slim book.  Kinda like metamucil.  i read it to keep my balance, and it asked me to consider people procreating with animals.  Good for my dreams.  A naive voice like my own.
If he were a horse I suppose I would bet on him against Alieksander Hemon, a serbian writer who almost has his game together.  There was something wrong with a russian novelist to go in a russian way through a novel and end it at  page 250 , 600 pages or bust. I f he gets his game together.  I make change my bets.
 

Smoking

All drugs are consumer objects, undistinguished from others.  Classified along with food, except drugs give the desiring machine sickness.  What is the difference between sickness and wellness anyway?  They are just different states, all paths lead to death anyways, who is to distinguish which paths are more moribund than others.  I guess a statistical analysis would do nothing, there are too many lurking variables.   I’m talking about smoking there is no way to discover whether or not smoking is bad for health-- too many variables.  What we do know about smokers is that they feel powerless over their desires for cigarettes.   Anti-smoking campaigns should focus on the power and self control and not wellness issues.  A moment to moment decision.  Nicotine supplements work by associating craving with nausea. 

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Haven't been writing.
been musicking.
blog style production.
real fast.

1/11/11

I had a friend, looked him up on the internet, and he was a super rich jet-setter.  turns out he in actuality was moving to Baltimore to study math at johns Hopkins.  couldn't be a more humble guy.  looks like the boy he was.  handsome as ever.  totally unaware of his charms.  he's a time-bomb.  he told me that after spending a time with me he feels sad.  all we do is talk about math and philosophy utter bullshit.  I think it's because our conversations are very empty. all wit no propositions.  I just liked him better as a jet-setter.  I was envisioning visiting him in Cancun and live off the the excess earnings of his charms and all the ill he could get of himself.  I think he mights be years ahead of me.  Here's a guy who plans to be old. and I'm sure he will be.  I want to be old too.  but i don't think you are supposed to emulate the elders. I thought that only the rich survive.  That's the tale I was taught.  But he's from a better built family then me, so he probably knows what the rich are doing.  Biding their time?  I think it may be the wise who survive.  

My father died in a boating accident.  My father died swimming in a river.  My father died somehow.  Never did figure that one out.  Took too many pills.  ones that were prescribed.  then some other things, the old stuff they used to give him.  The old stuff wasn't as subtle and masterly, it was obvious it was familiar it's probably made him remember.  Mark and Kelly call it Truth Serum.  But I guess they still have energy.  

I would record an album with mark.  He is into studio style production.  I think he is just not a musician.  A music fan.  who can use a computer.  I would imagine an enormous drum set playing four on the floor.  or the way i been thinking about it, a click, punch, and bass more or less together.  in fact the four on the floor would swing, gallop off and let the band catch up to the new groove. gallop off again when ready.  electric guitars doing spindly little things.  things that require intense repetitive motion of both hands.  some notes partially fretted.  it will be swinging to.  because at a thing if it don't swing.  

When I think of reptile music, I do think of actually lizards.  when I saw reptile music, I saw snakes.  And I thought about evil.  the poor actors left onstage with out any lines.  entrusted with a very easy task, yet they take no joy in it.  does god want them punished, I am puzzled.  Why am i here.  "after death metal" I guess when metal musicians are dead, they say, I guess i really did lead a joyless life, full of exploitation and violence.  My career has been self flagellation and indulgence.  why did i never learn my lesson.  why did i not at least learn to be a musician, with a pleased smile on my face, why did i have to grimace?  I was allowed the privilege to stand on stage and shine and I defecated and made vulgar jokes.  I threw away every chance handed to me. and now i'm here where the music doesn't touch, and the players appear to be dying from shame.    

B.C.

Baltimore County

better tax rates.

less cops.

we have cars, right?

The place is built for those things. 

The city sucks.

lay out the argument.

of why you live here.

I know you will bring up survivalism.

And the apocalypse.

so how's the scenario going to go?

I bring up the game of Risk.  

"I think with a really good looking haircut,

you could slip through."

Vast stretches of this country are dominated by squirrels, deeper still, squirrel-like manners of thinking.  What argument can you present which would undermine the squirrel offense?  

I can only offer my thoughts,

and I'm wondering why pascal's pensees was all scrambled up, arranged by by topic instead of just presenting his work as he wrote it.  That was pointless.  And why should pensees have no point?

I'm just worried about sleep schedules and liver function and the proper usage of diuretics.

Which reminds me to intake fresh water.